But I ddin't want this one
This morning whilst riding into work, I was alongside a double decker bus in the adjacent bus lane.
It seems a driver at a junction had stopped sticking his car's nose out just a little so the bus had to pull out a little bit to avoid taking the car's front end off.
The driver of said bus did this without indicating or seemingly checking his mirrors because he swung out right in front of me. I dropped the anchors and just about avoided slamming myself into the back of a double decker at 30 mph. Had I hit it, I would certainly have been thrown off the bike. I would probably have been run over by the closely following rush hour traffic.
Two minutes later, and still a later shaken, I almost turned right, plumb in front of an oncoming car. I had turned the handlebars and twisted the throttle but, thank gods, some warning instinct or sixth sense made me look just as I did so. Anchors away again!
To be honest, this sort of thing is a little par for the course, though it's not usually double deckers, so you learn to shake it off. But two near misses in as many minutes is somewhat harder to recover from. I was feeling physically sick all the rest of the way into work. I should probably have just turned round and gone home but hoped I might to feel better when I got to work.
At work, people immediately thought I was ill so I must have looked terrible. I felt like I was going to be sick and I couldn't focus. Easy things like typing in my password required a second or two to recall them. I made myself a mug of hot sweet tea, my manger sent me to have a quiet sit down but I was still feeling crap.
So I got sent home. I should probably have taken the tram and left the bike. I didn't! I've had two bikes stolen already; I'm not leaving my scooter probbaly overnight in Manchester City Cente. Besides if the horse tries to throw you, you're supposed to get straight back on, right?
As the rush hour had finished there was virtually no traffic and I took it slowly and carefully. I am now curled up on the sofa with another cup of tea and I'm staring to feel a little better. A bit of lunch is in the oven; food will probbaly help too.
This blog is helping also. I'm able to make sense of what happened, to work out why it affected me like this. It sounds wierd but it bothered me that I was so bothered by this, getting me caught up in a circular loop. Thinking about it, I'd probably have been OK if it had only been the bus but two was probably too much to just brush off.
Anyway lunch is ready. Food, a cuppa and then after I think I will chill out and watch some DVDs. My new Millenium Trilogy box set would be cool
Tags: personal, scooter, work
Current Mood: shocked